verdict after 1st week of PA - tired

This week marked my first week for my professional attachment at PwC Advisory. There are a total of 5 of us attached to this business unit. Trini and me are attached to the corporate finance (mergers & acquisition) side and Marge, Su Qi and Geraldine are attached to the transaction side IF I am not wrong. First day of work was kinda boring - lessons on ethnics, corporate values yada yada yada. The 5 of us were separated from the rest after lunch on the first day because we do not need to go thru' audit methodology!!!! Woohoo!!! The word "methodology" is synonymous to "dry and boring" in my dictionary man. But come to think of it, I should be most probably going to audit in my full time job next year. Sigghhhhh.... Can't escape.

Supervisor wasn't around for 3 days (out of 5 working days) so I was pretty much unobserved by him. *shrugs* The book prize ain't that important to me anyway. I was loaned an IBM laptop and there's internet access!!! *eyes sparkle* That can only mean 1 thing - I downloaded MSN 7.5 the first day I am in office. Hehehe... Pretty disappointed to find only PwC ppl only (yes... that include ppl from audit side). Where's eveyone? Dunch tell me you are not as slack as us. Bwahahahahahhaha...

Ok lah. Not really that slack. There's work to be done. The interesting about my department is that there's no peak or off-peak period. It all depends on the number of projects on-going at the moment in time and is pretty much ad-hoc basis. I worked on information gathering on a certain company *secret* and compiling data on it. It really feels like school again; going to bloomberg, searching osiris and thomson one banker, reading anaylst reports and annual reports etc... Ma-chiam like doing projects ok?!?!?! Somemore it's a one-man show project. Xiong can!?!?! (er... not really lah... in school most of the time also like that... sigh...) Anyway, the person who gave me the assignment say "don't worry. No dateline. Do as fast as you can". KNN. The next day he tell me to pass the work to him 1 hr before I knock off. Blardy hell... Luckily I finished my work 1 hr BEFORE he broke the news to me. Heng sia.....

Actually that person is not bad lah. Very friendly. Lent me his copy of chinese dictionary for accounting terms!!!!!! WOW!!! Now I know what is debit, credit, depreciation, expense, *hold your breath* tax sparing relief.... ALL IN CHINESE!!! cool!

Total amount of treats this week: 2 x tea. Not bad. Not as good as most ppl but I'm pretty ok. =)

Oh yah. I think most interns in PwC now had received a call from PwC offering us contracts to work there after we graduate. YAHOOOO!!! Hehe... Should I still go for the other big 3 interviews next week? Hmmm... Guess I will go ba. Can "eat-snake". Hehe...

Did anyone hear about the latest soccer news? Rooney scored 4 days and nistrelrooy scored 3 goals in a champions league match!!! Don't believe me? Come come. I show you on my laptop. Man U unbeaten for 20 league games as well. Ahhhhhhh.... football manager 2006 (to the girls - it's a game) is a better reflection of reality than reality itself. =P

happy belated birthday Marvin

Xue ren, happie birthday!!! Thanks for the meal! To those who are green eyed with jealousy right now, Marvin treated his whole gang of frens to dinner at Marina!! Rich and generous fellow. No wonder he drives his merc so little now, must be wan to save petrol money to treat us. What a buddy. *pat pat* U know, we helped you save money by not ordering dessert. =P Hope you had fun dude! I certainly did (esp when watching u kenna tekan). Hahahaha....

Haiz... Looks like lots of rs prob nowadays. I have a very very good fren who is facing a crossroad in his life as well. Good luck dude handling it. There's no right or wrong in a r/s but due to perceptions/rumors/gossips, one party (generally speaking) is sure to face the stick for the failure in the r/s. But i do applaud my this very good fren for something which he had done (or has not done). HE DOES NOT ADVERTISE HIS R/S PROBLEMS! Which I must say is a very very admirable thing to do. I mean, what you want to say are personal stuff and all you have to do is to let the other party know. Why do you want to let the whole world know? Disclaimer: I'm not typing these to go against freedom of speech and those that are condemning my entry can go bang the wall and check out my previous post about checking-your-own-dirty-laundry-list-before-condemning-others or something to that effect. What I want to say that such info is a purely on a need to know basis. Non? Nvm... As i'm typing this, there might be 2 more single souls roaming the planet.

First day at work tomorrow! Got a new briefcase this afternoon. Going broke sia~ Still owe Danlin $$$. I thot it's so sweet for her to sms me something but it's an IOU sms. Broke my heart. Ok lah ok lah.. Will transfer the $$ to you soon ok?


*latest update: 2 more souls confirmed single and roaming..... After almost 2 yrs, the whole saga had came to an end...*


Outburst as a result of suppressed frustration:
** I'm really really really tired of ppl coming up to me and telling me to handle my situation more appropriately. You think I want things to happen this way? Before you tsk tsk me, tell me how well are you handling your own life? I can dish out (good) advices as well! Please understand that I am TRYING MY BEST to manage the situation. If my sms-es have ambigious meanings and one (or more) of the meaning is hurtful, I meant the other (non/less hurting) one. I know some of you guys out there are concern about me. For that, I am really really thankful. *blows kisses* For the record, I am single until further notice on this blog. This should entice some of you guys to keep your eyes glued to my blog. (yah right...)**

final paper tomoloooo....

Yup.. The whole torturous examinations will be over in 17hrs 30mins. Can't wait for it to end man. This had been a sucky sem. VERY sucky. Hmmm.. Have some events planned out after the examinations tomolo.... hee.... Most prob will kick off with shopping with wendee, ~Z~ and Dap. I haven get my clothes and stuff ready for my PA which starts on mon!!! Ahhhhhhh..... Good luck to ys and ningzz who are going for HSBC interview tomorrow. Good luck to JIT; have a wunderbul outing with tun-gia ya? =P Dun lao bak sai... hahhaha....

Watched a DVD yesterday called "what women want". Interesting (old) movie where this guy got this strange ability to hear what women think. I was like "WOW". That is one fantastic ability that guy had there. Haha... I want such an ability that can hear both what men and women think. I wonder how many ppl are thinking badly about me then. Sure got a lot. I ain't no saint. The list of things that I seek forgiveness and understanding is long and never-ending. Before you criticise about someone or even look down on someone, please review that list of yours first. Spoken words are easy to pour out but the effects of such words can be accumulative and hurting. Ok, so much for food for thought after watching the DVD.

Marky told me something yesterday: He said that Weng Soon (my 311 tutor) told him once that we should not compare in life. Otherwise, we will never be happy. I happen to disagree with Marky as that statement is too sweeping. I think we should compare in life; but to a certain extent. By benchmarking ourselves against some targets, we will be able to improve ourselves and not rest on our laurels. Of course, these targets must be reasonable; if not, we will be "unhappy" (in the words of Weng Soon). For example, when I compare my soccer skills to a target, I don't choose Ronaldinho, do I? Though our skills are arguably (i.e can argue for very long) the same, he is too far a target for me to choose. So I target someone like Huang Jie (sorry lah... use for example only ok?). His skills are exemplary and his dribbling is silky (Mine is somewhere there too. =P). Thus, by comparing to a certain extent, it's only beneficial to ourselves. I feel that without benchmarking, one will only stay stagnant in life. Oui?

Devastated

AA206. RIP 16 Nov 2006. Will always be (fondly) remembered.

转身离开 分手说不出来...

十一月的萧邦 周杰伦

珊瑚海

男：海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
淹没浅浅的无奈
女：你用唇语说你要离开
男：心不在
男女：她能不顾身般留下来
男女：汹涌潮水 你一定明白
不是浪而是泪海
男：转身离开 认真说不出来 女：你有话说不出来
男女：海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
男女：我们的爱 争议一直存在
女：回不来
男：永久真爱 竟累积成伤害
女：等待经历几次伤害
男女：转身离开 分手说不出来
男女：蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白

男：当初彼此 不够成熟坦白 女：你有我的 不够成熟坦白
女：不应该
男女：热情不在 笑容勉强不来
男女：爱深埋珊瑚海

男：毁坏的沙雕如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重爱
只是一切 结束太快
你说你无法释怀
女：贝壳里隐藏什么期待
男：等花儿开
男女：我们也已经无心再猜

女男：脸上海风 咸咸的爱
尝不出还有未来
男：转身离开 认真说不出来 女：你有话说不出来
男女：海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
男女：我们的爱 争议一直存在
女：回不来
男：永久真爱 竟累积成伤害 女：等待经历几次伤害
男女：转身离开 分手说不出来
男女：蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
男：当初彼此 不够成熟坦白 女：你有我的 不够成熟坦白
女：不应该
男：热情不在 笑容勉强不来 女：你的笑容勉强不来
男女：爱深埋珊瑚海


Nice song. So decided to share with everyone. =) JIT, why is he gay? hahaha...

Exams in 2 days' time. woooooooo....... stressed out.

Interesting excerpt...

I have reading Dan Brown's book on and off for the past few days. Completed "Da Vinci Code" a few days back. After reading the book, I felt like going to Vatican and other art museums in Europe to look at all those wonderful art pieces that I can never afford to buy. Though I must admit that my art sucks and my last attempt to draw still-life (I think the object was an apple.. back in sec 2) flopped terribly. I just can't bring it to look LIFE. =( Religion is all about faith. I would love to get my hands on one of those books that counter the points that were brought out in the "Da vinci code" and see both side of the argument. For the record, my religion is buddhism by birth and free-thinker by nature.

Anyway, back to the interesting excerpt. It's from Dan Brown's "Angels and Demons". I find the analogy very clever and interesting:


Rand: "(Referring to God) I don't understand this omnipotent-benevolent thing."

Camerlengo (aide to Pope): "You are confused because the Bible describes God as an omnipotent and benevolent deity. It just mean that God is all-powerful and well-meaning."

Rand: "I understand the concept. It's just... there seems to be a contradiction. Terrible things happen in this world. Human tragedy seems like proof that God could not possibly be both all-powerful and well-meaning. If He loves us and has the power to change our situation, He would prevent our pain, wouldn't He? If God loves us, and He can protect us, He would have to. It seems He is either omnipotent and uncaring, or benevolent and powerless to help."

(At the point, I found myself agreeing but the next paragraph seemed like such a perfect response to this question.)

Camer: "Do you have children, Lieutenant?"

Rand flushed. "No, signore."

Camer: "Imagine you had an eight-year old son... Would you love him?"

Rand: "Of course."

Camer: "Would you do everything in your power to prevent pain in his life?"

Rand: "Of course."

Camer: "Would you let him skateboard?"

Rand: "Yeah, I guess. I'd let him skateboard but i'd tell him to be careful."

Camer: "So as this child's father, you would give him some basic, good advice and then let him go off and make his own mistakes?"

Rand: "I wouldn't run behind him and mollycoddle him if that's what you mean."

Camer: "But what if he fell and skinned his knee?"

Rand: "He would learn to be more careful."

Camer (smiling): "So although you have the power to interfere and prevent your child's pain, you would choose to show your love by letting him learn his own lessons?"

Rand: "Of course. Pain is part of growing up. It's how we learn."

Camer (nodding): "Exactly."



WHOA. Like that also can. Hmmmm.... Interesting... Oui?

why is my blog interface chinese?

Hmmm.. Weird. What did my sis do to my PC??? Why is blogspot interface chinese? Luckily it ain't too complicated to blog or I will be spending the next 1 hr figuring out the chinese. Paiseh lah... Higher chinese got C5 only. Ineffective bilingual...

Went out recently to want to get a briefcase but didn't get any. Well... Guess it has to wait until the end of the exam. Talking about the exam, was looking quite forward to the weekend. =) If i am not wrong, there is going to be shopping/KTV/sentosa events throughout the weekend after the exam (and before the preofessional attachment). Wendee was quite down the other day and I mentioned this and she perked up!! Guess she can't wait to practise her voice for impressario. HAHAHAHA!!! Tell us the date and we will go there and throw, ahem.. I mean.. Go there and support u!!!! Oh yeah, looking forward to Marvin's bdae celebration on sat as well. Huang Jie and I dropped our drinking plan (and watching man U vs Char) for u ok? Prepare a nice swimming pool as compensation ok? Heehehehe....

Some publicity for my fren here. His blog is www.afterapplepicking.blogspot.com. He is such a dual personality that I am stumped sometimes when I look at his blog. He can be the most vulgar person on earth and the next minute, he is someone who has so much "ink" and sprout poems. Wow. =)

The rioting in France is really saddening. Somehow I feel that the cause is not entirely about social unrest and inequality. I think the rioting is fuelled by groups of hooligans or junks of society who just want to take this opportunity to have a part in creating violence and doing things which normal circumstances dun allow them to do so. The whole event goes to show how potent a combination of marginalization and accumulation of unhappiness can result in.

The world is a complicated place.

woooooohhhhoooooooooooo

Man U WON chelsea 1-0!!! Yay!! Well done Man U... Really against all odds man... =) 10 points behind leader Chelsea on the league table with 1 game in hand. Dun know whether Man U will be able to catch up or not but I guess it's a mental victory for them. Yay!!!

3 more papers to go. Sigh... The first paper was bad. Haiz.... Super bad... Smoked too much.. Used too much marlboro and salem. Wendee, trust me you will do much better than what your msn nick suggest. *pat* Ivan, you dun snigger. Grrr... Still say paper easy some more. *Bish* Everyone else jia you!! NUS ppl also! Heh. I know your paper starts at the end of my last paper. Bwahahaha....

Hmmm... It will be my professional attachment 2 days after my last paper. A bit apprehensive. My first working experience leh!!! Well, strictly speaking, it's my second. My first job was in a NTUC near my place. Hee.. For about a month before I enlist into army. Went there to lift stuff, pack stuff. Just a storeboy. My mum say can build physique. haha.... As u can see, if u compare that kind of work to working in an accounting big 4 firm, there's a vast difference. =(

Anyone heard jay's latest album? I thot it's quite good. =) Esp. song #10. ANyone know where to get chinese lyrics for songs?

New song on blog

夜裡传来雨的声音　轻轻拨动心的旋律　情不自禁想到你　那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛　爱情需要一些呼吸　偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系　任你自由的来去　从此想念你只能放在我心裡

你还爱我吗　一直好想问你这句话　却又怕　听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗　为何你总是不说话　眼看我为爱不爱掙扎
你爱我吗　好久没有你的消息　心裡还惦記著你

在这冷冷的夜裡　感觉那么的熟悉　好想再見你想听听你的声音

感情的路总让人好无助　我会学著面对独处
给深爱的你祝福

你还爱我吗　一直好想问你这句话　却又怕　听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗　这是我唯一的牽掛　不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你　你还爱我吗

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